Going out with friends!!

[ChadCoxRox]

Sorry to hear it, but at least you are being social and trying. I'd think it would be fine even if you didn't! Grieving loss IS a process after all and you're certainly allowed to have some situational depression and discomfort. You also seem like a person suited for partnership with the right one, even if you are not ready for it again now...so maybe being in social situations just adds a frame around the fact that you are still going through the loss process and still healing. Maybe your place in that healing isn't at that level where you're going to be able to just let go and enjoy here-and-now socializing. I think and certainly hope you'll be much better in time but you do get to take "your" time dude! I hope it is helpful to share about it here though. I could have truly used this community four years ago when I was in the crescendo of my divorce grief. Love and hugs to you friend. Be forgiving of yourself and roll with it. Enjoy or "use" some "aloneness" for your own needs. Maybe get involved in some sort of productive or creative interest and know you NEVER have to be lonely...just come here and visit with us!