02-25-2012, 07:45 AM
Today was a bit of a mixed bag for me.
On a high note, I found out my sister is pregnant. She'd been having a rough go of it so hearing that she's expecting was exciting.
Then while we were sitting there she basically said she would never wish her child to be LGBT. I was really insulted by this and I just about got in an argument with her, then decided it was probably best to just shut up and leave the room. I think I was so pissed because it was that same mentality that made it hard for me to come out in the first place. I'm sure my parents felt the exact same way. The difference being she's seen what I've been through and still thinks it's a good idea to put that train of thought onto the head of her future children. She tried to calrify by saying she'd support her child no matter what, but at the back of her mind she's always going to be thinking "I hope you're straight".
Then while I was cooking supper she started suggesting I try online dating sites. While I was receptive to the idea, I was still a little pissed so I'm not sure it was well received all together. Really I know I have to start putting myself out there, but I've been retreating for so long I don't know how easy it's going to be to turn around and face the other direction.
Since I was frustrated after that exchange I decided to exercise for the first time since my heart scare a few months back. I forgot how good it felt to get my body moving. I feel much more motivated and just feel better in general.
Capped the night off with a scary movie. The Woman in Black. It was a decent horror flick. It did the atmosphere of scary very well, though I only jumped once. Not going to be a classic scary movie anytime soon for me anyways. Afterwards I went home and decided to pop in a movie that scared the crap out of me when I was 5. Dolls. Watching it now I realise how stupid that movie was, but there were still parts where I went back to being 5 years old and being afraid my little Buddy was going to try to kill me in the middle of the night.
So like I said, could've been a better day, but it could've been worse. I know my sister and brother-in-law are going to be great parents, and I can't change the way my sister feels, but I can still be the most accepting and loving uncle I can because I plan on being there for that kid come hell or highwater and that's all that matters.
On a high note, I found out my sister is pregnant. She'd been having a rough go of it so hearing that she's expecting was exciting.
Then while we were sitting there she basically said she would never wish her child to be LGBT. I was really insulted by this and I just about got in an argument with her, then decided it was probably best to just shut up and leave the room. I think I was so pissed because it was that same mentality that made it hard for me to come out in the first place. I'm sure my parents felt the exact same way. The difference being she's seen what I've been through and still thinks it's a good idea to put that train of thought onto the head of her future children. She tried to calrify by saying she'd support her child no matter what, but at the back of her mind she's always going to be thinking "I hope you're straight".
Then while I was cooking supper she started suggesting I try online dating sites. While I was receptive to the idea, I was still a little pissed so I'm not sure it was well received all together. Really I know I have to start putting myself out there, but I've been retreating for so long I don't know how easy it's going to be to turn around and face the other direction.
Since I was frustrated after that exchange I decided to exercise for the first time since my heart scare a few months back. I forgot how good it felt to get my body moving. I feel much more motivated and just feel better in general.
Capped the night off with a scary movie. The Woman in Black. It was a decent horror flick. It did the atmosphere of scary very well, though I only jumped once. Not going to be a classic scary movie anytime soon for me anyways. Afterwards I went home and decided to pop in a movie that scared the crap out of me when I was 5. Dolls. Watching it now I realise how stupid that movie was, but there were still parts where I went back to being 5 years old and being afraid my little Buddy was going to try to kill me in the middle of the night.
So like I said, could've been a better day, but it could've been worse. I know my sister and brother-in-law are going to be great parents, and I can't change the way my sister feels, but I can still be the most accepting and loving uncle I can because I plan on being there for that kid come hell or highwater and that's all that matters.
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