07-25-2013, 11:30 AM
Here I am at 5:25 am nearly and I am still awake though I thought at 3:00 am I would just get up for a while but I am nowhere needing to go back to bed. I have had a couple of vodka drinks but still am wide awake. Kinda of horny but when I go to watch porn I feel guilty because M is not here. M is my significant other (for me only as he thinks he is only my neighbor though we have quite a bit of sex together). I just really wonder why M invades my thoughts when I know I really never invades his thoughts. Why can't I just be me without him?