09-29-2013, 08:17 PM
Well, here's the thing...
It's probably one of my utmost humiliating and shameful thing that I do when under a lot of stress, but I stopped eating for awhile... like 2 days to be exact, only nibbling on Doritos, Crackers and Bread...and nearly passed out in the grocery store just awhile ago...
It's really the only thing I wish I could truly change about myself :crying-and-sorry-li , but when I get nervous or stressed, which is pretty rare, I tend to just not be hungry, like to the point where I won't eat for a day...
I hate being weak and seen as pitiable, so I played it off and managed to get home, and now I'm eating some Spaghetti and Hamburger, but I didn't realize I let myself slip so much...
My Boss at the Beach is letting me off early, due to only 1 or 2 ships coming in next month, which wouldn't be a thing to me, it is seasonal after all, I had planned for that, only it's just me who's getting let go early... and not only that but I have to pay rent for October and she kinda screwed my plans, because now I'm like 300$ short and I'm just like omg :crying-and-sorry-li
I was like "Mommmmy!" on the phone to her lol...
I don't start back up at the Aquarium until the end of October/Start of November, cause I was only working weekends up there and not fulltime so I can work both jobs, but my boss at the beach just really ruined it...
And then the grocery bills, phone bill, electricity bill, it just slowly but surely took it's toll... I was doing fine before this month, more than fine...
I'm usually good under pressure, but when she pulled the rug from neath me, I couldn't catch myself...
So I stopped getting food and kept my money close to my breast...
It's probably one of the reasons I've been so bitchy late lol. I mean, we all know I'm the Queen Bitch, but alittle extra lately...
Ugh Gurls, being an Adult sucks!
lol :crying-and-sorry-li
Although, on the good side, I am now reinsured and have medical coverage again
and that was something I really wanted done, because I need that gurl!
It's probably one of my utmost humiliating and shameful thing that I do when under a lot of stress, but I stopped eating for awhile... like 2 days to be exact, only nibbling on Doritos, Crackers and Bread...and nearly passed out in the grocery store just awhile ago...
It's really the only thing I wish I could truly change about myself :crying-and-sorry-li , but when I get nervous or stressed, which is pretty rare, I tend to just not be hungry, like to the point where I won't eat for a day...
I hate being weak and seen as pitiable, so I played it off and managed to get home, and now I'm eating some Spaghetti and Hamburger, but I didn't realize I let myself slip so much...
My Boss at the Beach is letting me off early, due to only 1 or 2 ships coming in next month, which wouldn't be a thing to me, it is seasonal after all, I had planned for that, only it's just me who's getting let go early... and not only that but I have to pay rent for October and she kinda screwed my plans, because now I'm like 300$ short and I'm just like omg :crying-and-sorry-li
I was like "Mommmmy!" on the phone to her lol...
I don't start back up at the Aquarium until the end of October/Start of November, cause I was only working weekends up there and not fulltime so I can work both jobs, but my boss at the beach just really ruined it...
And then the grocery bills, phone bill, electricity bill, it just slowly but surely took it's toll... I was doing fine before this month, more than fine...
I'm usually good under pressure, but when she pulled the rug from neath me, I couldn't catch myself...
So I stopped getting food and kept my money close to my breast...
It's probably one of the reasons I've been so bitchy late lol. I mean, we all know I'm the Queen Bitch, but alittle extra lately...
Ugh Gurls, being an Adult sucks!
lol :crying-and-sorry-li
Although, on the good side, I am now reinsured and have medical coverage again
and that was something I really wanted done, because I need that gurl!
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