How are you today?

[InbetweenDreams]

I began to think a lot about my issues again, which kinda made me depressive.

I will go to the gay advisory centre tomorrow and hope to get a list of gay / gay-friendly psychotherapists.

If only my life was easier to explain, then I'd have it easier to make the introduction, but I'm just so fucked up that I'm scared it will take me 12 weeks just for the introduction...

I think everyone needs to every once in a while stop, take a step back and realize almost everyone is at least a little if not a lot fucked up. I'm serious, we all feel like we're in a 1st person novel and everything that is happening in the world is happening to us. When you realize we're all a bunch of people living in a 1st person novel where everything in the world is happening to everyone.

Point here is stop beating yourself up for the things you see wrong with yourself, chances are you don't have to look for to find someone else struggling with a similar issue.

If you were to ask me what I thought of you well I say I see this handsome guy's avatar who lives in Germany (I think Germany, may be wrong lol). Different folks will see you much differently than you would see yourself, the things you are probably internalizing never crossed anyone's mind. They more than likely see you as a regular person, maybe someone thought "Oh he's a cutie," or perhaps they never noticed that you had a stain on that shirt or whatever.

Look more outward and less inward, then I think you'll see what I mean and see that its true. Not saying you don't have problems, but you shouldn't feel bad about yourself when we're all a little fucked up.