How are you today?

[InbetweenDreams]

Yeah I figured as much. I mean I have my insecurities but I have never randomly been nasty to people like that, not without a reason anyway (I might have been wrong in my reasoning though).

That being said it is easy to slip into worrying about things like that. I mean I know better. That's the thing about depression, often for me it is a pity party but it's one I didn't want to begin with. When you start thinking about things like Jesus fucking Christ I'm 30, single...everyone else is married and living it up, making more money, happier... If we lived past lives and karma is a real thing what the hell did I do... Realistically, I think karma is crap, I see bad things happen to good people and good things happen to people who are bad... I guess that's off subject.

I think I get too caught up into worrying about health, career, parents and their health issues and staying too isolated... I really do feel at times that I am bothering people when I ask them if they want to hang out or something, so I usually never ask... I guess after a few bad experiences I just let people come to me now.

Anyway, enough of that.