How are you today?

[Jay]

Lol Marshlander. The first whistle that I received from him was a standard whistle (Exactly like how a guy whistles to a girl). The next whistles were more melodically. He equips his whistle with a cheeky smile.

There was this one time when I was waiting to cross a road. He popped out from nowhere and stood beside me. He kept staring at me and as a result, I became panic a bit. I tried to act normal as possible and acted like I didn't notice his stares. Now to think of it I sound like an as* a bit for being unfriendly to him.

Settled. mile:

I haven't seen him for a while. Bumped into him in our office building's convenience store this morning. He whistled. I looked at him. He gave me a wink. Then we shared the same elevator. It was just the two of us in the elevator. I opened a simple conversation with him and he greeted it warmly. We introduced each other.

I will allow myself to be more extra open to my first crush, Mr Wink and other guys starting from next Monday. I'm ready to give them more intimate physical contact in a non slutty way. By all means more hugs, soft punch etc.

Settled as well. mile:

Love his nerdiness. Sweet, strong, gentleman and charming guy.

I confess that I really hope to have my first crush as my lover. I sincerely want him more than just a good friend and a brother. He really captures my heart.

Not sure what's going on but the relationship still continues mile:. He did some sweet stuff and gestures for me this morning. I still love this guy but as I've said previously, it doesn't bother me if I don't get him. I'm very happy to have him as a very good friend.

I also thank him for inspiring me. He's a very active guy who takes martial art class, tennis, gym and few others. I told him that I am going to join a dancing class next year (next intake is on June/July). It's not a full time class. Just a once in a week. I will not let my injured leg stops me from fulfilling my dream. I want to dance in public again. I also want to train my dance choreography skill to the fullest.

He is pretty much my role model right now.

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Anyways I would like to say thank you to my friends in real life as well as in Gay Speak for providing advices as well as encouragement. Thanks everyone.

Forgot to mention. I'm becoming more out than the usual nowadays.