Sadly, Still Curious After 20 Years

[FreshFace2014]

Whilst the words are Heterosexual, Bisexual and Homosexual, there is no emphasis on the sex part here, thus they are not HeteroSEXual, BiSEXual and HomoSEXual.

Seems to be you are fixated on the sex part. being with another person and determining our 'sexuality' is a bit more complex. The other emotions of attraction and being with a person play as much of a role, if not more of a role in determining our sexual preference than who we happen to play with in a sex-act.

Sex is just sex - be it with a man a woman a hole in a dead, half rotted log you stumble across in the forests.... The manual act of friction and probing is only physical simulation.

Since you find women 'hot' and have a sexual attraction to males as well, the chances are rather high here that you bisexual.

As for running away from a guy you are hooking up with... perhaps the problem wasn't so much that a guy was giving you head, the problem may have been that the guy was merely a stranger and not someone you are actually sharing in deeper, more meaningful intimacy?

This is where those other aspects to sexuality play a role in sex. Desiring to be with a special someone you care about is often a bit more important than a warm body that can perform activities.

A thought experiment you should try with yourself is sitting down and imagining getting involved in a lovers relationship with a dude. - Can you see yourself sharing a life with another man in a married sort of way?

If not then perhaps you are merely dealing with a sex drive and not so much sexuality.

Sorry I have been away after only one post, but I did not bookmark the page and forgot about it until I got an email that I was missed.

Anyway, to respond here: I don't think me leaving the room had anything to do with it being a stranger who I had no deeper connection to. I mean, otherwise how could I have one night stands with females?

What makes no sense to me is I had no problem or fears when I started having sex with women. I guess the nervousness stems more from fear of being "outed" before I am ready to say how I really feel.