Please Please gimme some advice..im going mad!

[jwed888]

was reading this post and i can relate this to myself.

right now im in college and have a really close friend of mine whom i think is really good looking and gorgeous guy. however, he is very ''anti-gay'' ppl, so what im thinking now is that i can only be his best friend instead of even dreaming about us together.

its been 3yrs i know him and be with him every time i felt happy coz most of the things he did i will know, in another word he will share it with me.
but....
he has a gf... is been 2months i avoid him (semester break). since im working part time, i always push his invitation of hanging out, play pool, swim.. etc .... all i can say is that im working sry im busy.... wondering whether is right or wrong.

and on top of that. should i or should i not tell him how i felt?
im just afraid that we cant even be friends after saying it.. its been a ''secret'' tho from my friends n family..

family have ''high hopes from me, wish that i wont let em down...''
u know how asian thinking works rite. generally they think that gay ppl are no good. how to prove... T_T

help?!