I Dont Know When

[CrossNecklace]

THANKS GUYS for all the stuff you said.

So now I let you know everything that happened at the meeting.
First thing though is that it was hard for me to find the place..stupid mapquest told me to make a u-turn only to end up at a close gate. I almost gave up on it, but i told myself i gotta do this cuz it'll be awhile again to go to another one since im busy at school. So I went to this room and I was a bit confused so I asked one of the guys that was there if it was the right room. Thank goodness it was. They ask me how I found out about the place. i told them about this site and how princealberto recommended a group meeting for me. so then i searched and found it on google. I introduced myself to everyone and shook their hands. Anyways, I was just looking around for the first 30 minutes since no one was really there yet. They had half naked guys posters on walls. I thought it funny. Then they tell me that tonight was just gonna be a movie night but that didnt really happen since no one liked the movie that was going to be played. it was about a guy who got aids or soemthing. So then more people came and i introduced myself. everyone seemed nice. We all gathered together and sat facing each others. We all introduced ourselves and talked about stuff but nothing about gay experiences. They were just talking about normal stuff that everyone talks about. I thought that was cool. Like I said I have no gay friends so I didn't know XD. I didn't really say much cuz I was still thinking about my situation w/ my parents. After we ran out of things to say everyone just got up. A couple of guys left and then i started talking one on one w/ other guys. I told them about my experience so far and they told me what they've been through. Then this guy named Derrick who happened to be bi-curious invited me to his b-day party. I said yes cuz i really needed to make friends. I have to say he was a pretty good looking guy and he always smiled. He also invited this other guy named Anthony who's been going to the meeting for atleast 2 yrs. We also talked and stuff and he said that we should just carpool to get to Derrick's house. I said that'd be nice. They both gave me their numbers. I thought that was cool. Then I said goodbye to everyone and left. It was so worth it. I met new friends. When I got home I texted both of them so that they get my number tooo. Me and Derrick are now chatting on AIM. He called me once and we talked for almost an hour. That was nice. I learned about his curiousity and how he started having feelings for other guys when he was a sophomore. He really wants to hang out with me but my work schedule is getting in the way and i hate that lol. I really wanna hang out w/ him too cuz he seems like a nice cool guy to hang out with. We both watch Heroes! lol. And he's barely turning 18 this december. he told me that he thought i was cute too and that i would look good in a beater. Honestly...that was so gay. But I'm glad he said it. Cuz I feel that I'm starting to like him too. I wonder if we'll kiss at the party. I've never kissed a guy before. I always wondered though how it would be like. Better than kissing a girl ofcourse. We might be able to hang out and watch a movie this sunday. Only free time for me this weekend. He asked me too if i was interested in any guys. i told him i was just looking for friends right now and i really needed that. And i meant that. That's why i feel so bad that im not gonna be able to go to that meeting til maybe january...dang it!

Questions anyone??? huh??