Lost...isolated...and afraid

[Confuzzled4]

I must tell you, that your post actually brought tears to my eyes because so many people, especially gay and other noncissexual individuals, have felt or do feel the way that you do. Many times I've felt, and occasionally do feel the same way that you do. Your writing reminds me of my own writing, so I would surmise at the expense of surrounding arrogant you are an intelligent young man. The world is a very painful one, but there are so many wonderful things out there: love, science, music, art, nature. All the best things out there are simple and free to experience. It very much would benefit you to at least to talk to someone, preferably in person though it is great that you posted on here, in greater detail about your feelings. Insane has a very negative connotation, depression is simply an illness that many many millions of people experience. Being gay and accepting that is hurting you, but if I had to guess underlying that is an abysmally low self esteem and not being able to see what others who love you see. At the least, you see that I and all these other gentlemen have taken the time to read your post and offer you feedback, so please don't feel as though you're forgotten by the world.