Dating/Friendship Advice

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well i only saw the snapchat he took of a photo of a guy he was having dinner with. captioned "with pain in the ass (emoji laugh)" it's just that his ex was asian, this guy happened to be asian, and i feel like im losing out to another asian...its like getting kicked in the balls non stop.

i'm so vulnerable because with my first date ever, the guy came around and called and said he was getting together back with his ex, and that all along he was stringing me along. and i cant seem to let go of my past, and it kind of makes me feel like maybe im not worth anyone's time and those who are around me only tolerate it.

i can't call, because ill only look like an actual psycho, but i cant do anything but overthink. stalking doesnt help when his snapchat score increase and when he's last online on whatsapp. imagine he had facebook/instagram, i'd be on it all the time.

im doing my best to ghost him, so not show my timeline on his snapchat. it just hurts even more, because it feels like ive gone down this exact path before, and i decided to stay away from the dating scene for about 6 years, just to regain myself. i cant help but feel like this experience is only going to bring me back to where i was then.

all i really want is closure without acting like a psycho. lol