I am really afraid

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Yup, I'm in the same situation as you, although, as it seems not for much longer.

The risks are always there. You can lose people in your life, as easily as you may not. If you do, they were not any people you would want to keep around anyway. They won't care about the real you, hence, you shouldn't care about them or about losing them.

As for the parents, personally I don't give a fuck about them, but I do worry about my sister and what she can pull off in her predictable angry backlash. I don't care much for her either, emotionally speaking, but I'm sure some reactions induced by her can do heavy damage and I'd rather not risk that until I go away and not having to deal with them anymore.


It helps that I'm independent and self sufficient. If you are both those things, you shouldn't worry too much. If you aren't, work your way towards that before attempting to find out. Avoid a scenario in which there will be violence towards you, or you ending up in the streets.


As you say, being closeted starts taking a toll on you as the years go by. The loneliness ain't pretty. And it's not meant for you. Eventually, it would be best for you to just be you, some people need to make a statement and announce it. But, It doesn't have to be a massive ceremony, not everyone needs to know about it. Just a few key people that you deem necessary.

But do take your time in coming to terms with this. It's taken me long enough so I won't say anything about you regarding that. However, at some point you will be faced with a decision. Being miserable on the inside or facing potential risks on the outside which might no hapen at all.