Im not sure if its ok to get a girlfriend

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You guys are right I need to figure it out before I can do anything. Thats means no more sex with men, no more sex with women, until I can un-fuck myself.

I think I should probably get some gay friends, because I dont have any they could help with my fence sitting. Should I go online or some popular gay hangouts?

I was talking with my best friend the other day about gay topics and he doesnt seem to hate gays. He also thinks its ok that I find boyish girls attractive, all of my male partners have been feminine men but he doesnt know that yet. If I come out and its a big if it will probably be to him first, he's a really good person.

So my attraction to men and women that fall within the androgynous no-mans land, maybe its nothing? Maybe its something? IDK I do know that I dont have a sexual attraction to women but I may have a romantic attraction to them? And vice versa with men? I know Im really fucking weird.

To answer someones questions one thing that I love about men is that my liaisons with them come very easy. Ive never had any difficulty hooking up, its very natural to me and men are very easy to talk to IMO

Please forgive my terminology Im not down on all the current or really any of the gay slang.