Age Gap: Worry about after my partner passes away.

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We're all here for a finite amount of time that is unknown to us. Yeah he's a 11 years older but I could get hit by a semi-truck tomorrow....but hopefully not.

I mean it is a rational to think about it, no one wants to be alone in the end but sometimes it happens and as others have said, make memories. Don't put things off. Right now I wish I was with someone to make memories with. I just turned 30 a few months back and I guess it is something psychological about the number but I feel that I have robbed myself of having a more, vibrant life, I guess. Can't spend all my time whining about the past, but I do feel that I'm stuck in a infinite loop, day in and day out...go to work, come home, repeat and it bothers me.

Anyway, quit worrying about what's ahead or what's behind, now is the time that matters the most because you can't change the past or control the future.

Indeed, you can't and shouldn't because that would be a sure way to get steeped in depression. And for the record many of us in the gay world have not been able or are not able (even today) to have that dreamt-of life where we have the perfect partner and are still young and beautiful. Some of us managed to reach our forties and fifties and sixties and still managed to find a partner in the end. So, don't despair.