I'm a terrible person

[InbetweenDreams]

I get it now. I get it. I'm a terrible person. I'm a piece of shit.

I just can't stand it anymore.

It never stops. It never ever stops.

First my psycho aunt tells me "everyone" calls me a "faggot" behind my back, then my sister-in-law calls me a faggot and says everyone calls me it behind my back.

Then my car gets vandalized, right when I was trying to get rid of it by trading it in.

I get it. I'm a terrible, terrible, terrible, horrible, fucking person.

I just can't stand it anymore. I just can't deal with it.

It's too much. I just don't understand why I can't just be left alone. No matter how hard I try. If people hate me so much, I just don't understand why they can't just leave me alone.

@Chase Nothing in this post or anything else you have discussed on this forum has ever gave the notion that you're a bad person. Unless you can give specific examples like you tossed babies off a bridge or pushed an elderly lady down a flight of stairs I don't think you having experienced these things is indicative of such.

So you have a crazy bitch aunt who claims people call you a faggot behind your back. Regardless of whether it is true or not, again doesn't make you a bad person perhaps makes them bad/toxic people. If people in your family treat you this way I would make it a point in my life to sever all ties to them. It is difficult but it is unlikely to change. Pursue the things that will bring you happiness.

Not sure what the whole story is about your car getting vandalized or the extent of the damage done. Not sure what sort of insurance you have, value of the vehicle, etc, etc. But I do believe that a comprehensive policy should cover that sort of thing. In my case I hit a deer and of course that is different than being vandalized.

All I can say is people are terrible. It is *not* you, it is them. People are jealous, people are vile and just plain stupid.

I realize there's not much anyone can say or do that will make things instantly better but all I can say is take one thing at a time, don't try to deal with all the things at once. When it comes to people like your aunt, fuck what they say, you do you. Don't buy into this, wherever it came from, idea that you're a bad person.

Besides all that, we're all flawed humans, we all do bad shit at some point, some people simply refuse to acknowledge that they have and do bad things. There's probably a formidable argument that I am a bad person. Hell, we can find a few gems right here on GS... Heck someone had a problem that I filed for bankruptcy and that I should feel guilty for ripping off those poor poor bankers. The thing is, not matter who you are, no matter how "good" you are, no matter what you do, there will be someone who is going to be a Karen. Exile the people out of your life who treat you poorly and embrace those who treat you well.

Hope you find something useful in all that.