How to Trust ?

[mooninleo]

I appreciate your message. I was having a very relaxing shuttle ride last night when I was able to string some thoughts together about this very subject. It seems to go well with how you're feeling about trust and this other person.. i'll try to put it into words:

You are a complete person. You have a certain view of the events that transpired between you and this man. In relationships, this view sometimes becomes blurred and you allow things to happen that while you don't agree with them, the other person tells you their side and so you give that up and you let it slide.

I was in that situation and I let a guy treat me really bad and i allowed myself to be convinced that it was okay. So i took what he gave to me and i allowed my own views to be ignored. This started a spiral and before long i forgot who i was and didn't trust the thoughts that i had in my head..

So. I dunno. Please be sure to stand up for yourself. Your thoughts are yours. Don't let anyone take them away from you. And everyone is always like 'oh i always saw signs but i ignored them.'

It has to be up to you to really be a member of this relationship. If you wanna let everything slide, then you should be open and in love and give the relationship your all. But if you can't be open, then maybe you deserve to be in a relationship where you can be.

I spent a lot of time ignoring my hunches and put that vision of myself into a shoebox while i was in this relationship. I've had to regain myself back. its been a long scary process.

Its a tough position :/