11-27-2010, 12:27 AM
I don't think all girlfriends will react as coolly as Mick's wife. Your girlfriend, if she isn't controlling, is certainly looking for the truth. What is probably the case is that she has felt something is not totally right, and that she's trying to get to the bottom of it. I'm taking the option here that she's not a controlling freak, but just someone who needs to know whether she's making the right choice of partner. I think maybe it would be more honest with her and to yourself just to call the relationship a day and maybe see less of each other until you've had the opportunity to find out what those gay feelings are and how they could become true in your life.
I had a similar experience to yours when I was in my early 20s. But first I had a boyfriend, then for 4 years a girlfriend that I truly loved and felt comfortable with. But when we broke up for reasons that were nothing to do with our emotions for each other, rather with life taking a turn, I swore to myself that I'd never get back into a relationship with a woman as I didn't feel I'd be honest and fair with her. My hankerings for another male body and romantic partner were just too strong underneath the surface. I finally plucked the courage to do someting more about it after 18 years of celibacy... In a way, that celibacy probably kept me from going the same way as many men of my generation, and dying of AIDS, but since I met my current partner, it's been just wonderful to be loved and be in love with another man... I'd say you need to experience something like it before you can truly choose which way to go. Good luck in finding your own truth and being able to stand up for it.
I had a similar experience to yours when I was in my early 20s. But first I had a boyfriend, then for 4 years a girlfriend that I truly loved and felt comfortable with. But when we broke up for reasons that were nothing to do with our emotions for each other, rather with life taking a turn, I swore to myself that I'd never get back into a relationship with a woman as I didn't feel I'd be honest and fair with her. My hankerings for another male body and romantic partner were just too strong underneath the surface. I finally plucked the courage to do someting more about it after 18 years of celibacy... In a way, that celibacy probably kept me from going the same way as many men of my generation, and dying of AIDS, but since I met my current partner, it's been just wonderful to be loved and be in love with another man... I'd say you need to experience something like it before you can truly choose which way to go. Good luck in finding your own truth and being able to stand up for it.