Really messed up - need help

[marshlander]

I can understand why you don't feel very proud of yourself at the moment, but many people do some very odd things around the time of coming out. For me it was as though I gave myself permission to feel again and I felt that I simultaneously experienced decades of unexpressed emotion. It was very unsettling and pretty awful for the poor man who had to put up with it.

Whatever you end up doing don't forget you only need to make one error of judgement so ... safe sex ... okay?!!

Things did settle down for me after a while and I'm sure they will for you too.

Good luck.