I am very confused and do not have anyone to talk to.

[XRIMO]

You need to come to terms with your own attractions. Gay and straight are much more complicated than everyone seems to think. I can understand your nervousness, because I had accepted my homosexuality a long time ago, but when I joined this forum, I was shaking and scared that I was entering a world I knew nothing about. However, I found that I'm not alone, that everyone is different and things are not so cut and dry, like sexuality.

If the idea of being with a man SEEMS appealing, then you are curious, if the idea of being with a man IS appealing, then you might be on the not-so-straight path. But your attractions are yours and you are the only one who can decide what will make you happy.

EDIT: You can talk to any of us here if you need help, so please do.