I am very confused and do not have anyone to talk to.

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I think more than anything else I'm just looking for someone to just tell me that it's not really the curse that I've always been told it is.

Being gay really isn't the curse you have always been told it is.

Just as an illustration from my own life, this morning I woke up next to my boyfriend, after, erm, enjoying each other, we got up and had breakfast. Today we've done the grocery shopping and dealt with a number of financial and household tasks, and now we have just eaten a curry together that he cooked.

My point is that, that couple are not rare counterexample to the general rule. Two guys, loving each other, living together and, generally speaking, being happy together is perfectly normal.

Also if you need someone to speak to and confide in, in real-life rather than on the Internet, I dare say that one or other of that couple would be happy to speak to you.