Alone and not sure how to deal with it

[oldster]

i think we all need to be able to talk with out watching and judging how each word will be acceptrd and will we reveal our real feelings someone that knows be cause they are in the same boat. i go to the chat rooms and ask ifanyone wants to just talk not cyber my nick as most the info they always ask asl but maany still pm me and first thing i say is dont cyber just talk and lots want dirty talk but i like to learn about other culturs and feelings they have on lots of subjets annd yes about ho it is to be gay in that place how closet they are and all
and giveing them someone to talk to with out the constant pruesser of got to get off
but i admit it is hard to start a conversation on the internet plus i seem a bit crazy some times because i have had some telapatic experiances that if i start to discuss i have a habit of going on and on some times they dismiss me as a paranoid skitso but what ever they did not have the experiance and if they did they just dismissed it from their mind because if theyidnt it ment they were crazy since that cant happen i love to learn just about anything because te more i learn the more things i have to play with in my head and invent or what ever so if anyone ever wants to just talk i use the same oldster nick every where there are other things added on to but basicly it starts with oldster i am ait alonne here lost my love of 34 years recently nd sat around all day when not doing chores talking about everything and anything so you can see how it is mostly i just get curious guys to talk to me lots sy how did you know that was my reaction or thats true lots dont realize we are human beings and there for our reations are usally simular besides they dont realize what they tell me when they talk to me or how i interpet the information ok soap box mode off (thats basicly for uk freinds to esily understand )
it is a thing guys with points of view or ambition us to go stand on soap box in front of crouwds and expound their point of view or what ever so i say that after i get too preachie