Should I? Or Should I not? I'm dying here.

[iPromise]

Hmm a list?

We have so many things in common. (shopping, clothes, the way we dressed, major etc..), He doesn't judge me, He really did care about me, We could talk for hours and hours long (lol, one night I was up 4AM talking to him), lol, gosh he had a bright future ahead of him, He inspires me, He's the "ideal" guy I've ever meet, he's very professional, he also is compassionate, caring, loving, and, he's extremely optimistic (many gay guys I've met thus far see the negatives of the world instead of the good side).

Gosh, the list could just go on and on...there's so much to him, I've cried myself so many times, going to bed, dreaming about him.

Truth is, I've ignored him twice when he tried to communicate with me. (but I was angry at that time). Just talking about this here makes my stomach want to roll over.

I go to the gym everyday just because I want to try to get over him, take my mind off of things. (The gym is my stress relief). Sometimes I work and obsess over my everyday life just to not think about him, but it never happens!

You're right, I'm obsessing over him. I need to go see a psychologist so bad, (they offer free counseling here at my school) but I can't seem to pull myself together to make that call.

The other day I was in the library studying and started to think about him, I literally wanted to start crying right there and then. I couldn't help but just pick myself up and leave.