In a relationship with a girl but confused(This will be quite a long message sorry)

[Anonymous]

"Anonymous, geez I feel like a douche, here I am whinning that I have something amazing but I don't know if it is right, when you are dealing with so much more."

No, please don't.

I am not good with words. I feel like I should have kept my mouth shut. I didn't want to make you feel bad. I wanted to encourage you. The whole world is open for you, your family is standing behind you. I thought you felt sad, and I wanted to let you know, that you shouldn't be.

I didn't want to hurt you, hijack your thread or make you feel bad. I am very sorry if I did that. You touched the nerve and I didn't handle it well. I wanted you to see how blessed you are and that there is no reason to panic.

Take it slowly, it is okay to be confused. I am surprised that Bowyn Aerrow suggests that bisexuals are overlooked (?) group. I wouldn't say that.

Anyway, it is not important if you end up with a guy or a woman. The important thing is to feel comfortable in your skin.
Again, I apologize. I hope we will meet again without me having a paper bag on my head...

[MetalMonster]

"Anonymous, geez I feel like a douche, here I am whinning that I have something amazing but I don't know if it is right, when you are dealing with so much more."

No, please don't.

I am not good with words. I feel like I should have kept my mouth shut. I didn't want to make you feel bad. I wanted to encourage you. The whole world is open for you, your family is standing behind you. I thought you felt sad, and I wanted to let you know, that you shouldn't be.

I didn't want to hurt you, hijack your thread or make you feel bad. I am very sorry if I did that. You touched the nerve and I didn't handle it well. I wanted you to see how blessed you are and that there is no reason to panic.

Take it slowly, it is okay to be confused. I am surprised that Bowyn Aerrow suggests that bisexuals are overlooked (?) group. I wouldn't say that.

Anyway, it is not important if you end up with a guy or a woman. The important thing is to feel comfortable in your skin.
Again, I apologize. I hope we will meet again without me having a paper bag on my head...

I didn't want to make you feel bad either I hope the jokey side of it came through (with the geez and stuff milebecause that is how I meant the quote. It is so tough to convey that in text though so I can see how especially as you don't know me you can look at the quote and see me feeling really bad. When I felt the opposite I was being jokey mile:. I am not very active on forums and things so I am not that aware of how my words can be seen in a completly different light than the intention.

If anything it helped me just as much as anything else. I had a laugh at myself, felt a little silly, thought about how much worse things are for so many people in the world, all that 22,000 people will die today needlessly stuff and things l8ike that. I need that just as much as all the other things. Like I said when we wallow I think we tend to think it is the worst thing in the world and no one else is feeling worse than I at anyone time. Snapping out of that has been just as important as anything else.

I can only apologise and really hope you see where I was coming from now and if you ever need to talk I will be there and try and help you in anyway I canmile:.

princealbertofb the reply to Bowyn Aerrow was written an hour or so ago and submitted before you even sent that message mile:. The administrators don't trust me yet so it takes a while for these things to come through mile:

Again thank you to you all

[zeon]

hello and welcome to gayspeak,
The place your in isnt the best i do admit but to be honest it could be your inner self exploring what you want.. Now the anaylsis of what you put is that you may be wanting to give things a try and you yet feel frightened... To be honest there is no harm in asking for a shag to be discreet about things. One thing never to do is label yourself as anything because labels are not for people... Now with regards to finding the right choice in life there is nothing stopping anyone masturbating to a persific topic of interest whether it be man woman trans etc but to be honest you are only able to find out the true you by experiementing. Now i am going to ask have you had sexual intercourse with a girl?? If so try with a man and once you have experienced this then see how you feel inside... Dont feel guilty about doing it because exploring yourself is something that loads of men and women go through and to be honest if i didnt have sexual intercourse with someone many moons ago i would be in a situation where i feel like i cant get out of... I would recommend firstly that as a passive person and taking it up the arse you do the reasearch on possible dos and donts like i did when i first experiemented because being prepared and gathering knowledge can help protect not only you but also the person who is doing the deeds its about respect...

Best thing to do is have some fun and see where life goes to and dont worry there is only one person who rules this site and thats Andy and then theres me the gayspeak agony aunt....

Joining a site like this with people in your situation you realise people joined together shows we are not alone so give it a go and have fun

klindest regards

zeon x

[MetalMonster]

Cheers guys there are 2 big posts from me they are just going through the moderators I am not trusted yet mile:.

All of you are so positive and supportive though that I know I can count on you guys to be there for me where ever I end up mile:

[zeon]

well dont b a one hit wonder mister hehe its a friendly forum here and we dont judge

[princealbertofb]

I don't think long posts need a moderator... anyway who's a moderator on this site now???

[MetalMonster]

Yes it is annoying with the moderatorthing, my post which is #8 is an add on to my main long message so please wait on that one. I ti will make more sense when read with that so I will probably try and repost it after the long one comes out.

And anonymous, there is an apology in there for you. That quote you picked out was meant as a Joke. You more made me laugh at myself and my selfpitting wallowing which I definitly needed

[DarkDaisuke]

Well good luck I'm only 20 but still I know Im gay and I hope you can figure out what you like

[Nick9]

Hi MetalMonster,
I can see you've already got your posts back
I don't think it is you or the lenght of the post, I remember couple of mine had been postponed as well and they were really short and innocent. Because, honestly, I am innocent :biggrin:

I think you have your thoughts sorted out well. I wouldn't say that it is not okay to feel just a physical atraction at first, I bet hetero relationships start like that too. I wouldn't be surprised if straight guys/girls fantasy about having a hot night with the same sex. However I am not that sure that it gets past the anonymous "faceless" fantasy person. If you sit in a bar and it pops in your head that you want to try it with that guy over there and even the look at him alone makes you excited and you feel the pull... then I think you get from the fantasy stage to somewhere else Happy exploring :biggrin:

[MetalMonster]

Hi MetalMonster,
However I am not that sure that it gets past the anonymous "faceless" fantasy person. If you sit in a bar and it pops in your head that you want to try it with that guy over there and even the look at him alone makes you excited and you feel the pull... then I think you get from the fantasy stage to somewhere else Happy exploring :biggrin:

Thanks Nick9 it is something I have to think alot more about but I still don't think it has got past a faceless thing in a way. I guess I mean the toy now had a face or more probably multiple faces as there has never been one specific guy that I have thought about exclusively - the way they smell, the thrill as they brush me in a corridor etc - as so many people in other posts I have read have seemed to have when discovering there sexual feelings. So in many ways the thoughts have never been about a being it is more like an object. I have never thought about a man when I feel these urges, I wonder what he is like as a person, is he kind, is he funny etc. I have not even thought whats is he like in bed I don't think. I think it has always just been more that I needed some sort of sexual gratification.

Which feels horrible to say because I am basically saying I have viewed other human beings as walking robots that could give me pleasure, that disgusts me :frown: Wow am I screwed up.