06-21-2012, 05:03 PM
I know that we all have.. at times to face trials and tribulations.. but as of late..it seems I am being tested or punished.. I don't even know. But the last 2 years have been the hardest in my life. And it isn't over yet. Just how much can a person take? I lost my house in the housing fiasco.. then last year I lost my job.. I have put in hundreds of aps. and have still found nothing, then I lost my best friend and constant companion of 8 years, (yes my beloved dog) it was like losing a child. Then a dear friend called me, she had been diagnosed w/stage 4 cancer.. and lived alone. She wanted to come stay w/me. She arrived and in less than two months... she succumed to cancer. God bless her, I have never seen such courage. Now I'm being illegally evicited by the wicked witch of the west.. whom I thought was a friend. But you can't fight money. I haven't the money to move.. I haven't a place to go... I have never in my life felt so helpless. I have always been very independent and never needed anyones help. I have always tried to help those who needed help, and tried to be a good person. I have always believed in "God". But its increasingly hard to believe in anything when it seems I can't even catch a break. I can't even remember the last "good" thing thats happened to me. I'm trying to figure out what to do.. but I'm so depressed I don't think I'm even thinking clearly. Forgive me for whining... but I just need to vent....... and my brothers and sisters are all I have ... I am an artist of sorts, I make trees mounted on rock or quartz bases. I've been trying to sell them, and have had some luck. But finding stores with gas prices as they are makes it hard. I think I need a web site, but I'm not that computer savvy. They say when it rains, it pours....... well I'm drowning... and don't know what to do.......... again forgive me.. I just needed to get this off my cheast........ thanks for listening guys.
"Shattered"
My heart is all but shattered.... and the pieces fall like rain....
Scattered by the wind... it seems to numb the pain,
I have lost myself... and it seems I've lost my way....
My direction is uncertain... and nothing feels OK,
I don't know where I'm going... or just what lies ahead...
But I can hear the whispers... though I don't know what was said,
I feel as though a part of me... has died and blown away...
And I am just an empty shell... `with nothing left to say,
The echo's in the distance... are ringing in my ears...
And as the sun begins to rise.... I wipe away the tears,
Its strange it seems... how life goes on... while yours is crashing down...
And though one "love"is at its end... another one is found,
And so it goes.. the circle... as it was ment to be...
We laugh.. we cry.. we live.. and die... and then our soul is free,
So I will gather the pieces... of my scattered wind blown heart...
And never look over my shoulder... at my world thats torn apart.
sg
"Shattered"
My heart is all but shattered.... and the pieces fall like rain....
Scattered by the wind... it seems to numb the pain,
I have lost myself... and it seems I've lost my way....
My direction is uncertain... and nothing feels OK,
I don't know where I'm going... or just what lies ahead...
But I can hear the whispers... though I don't know what was said,
I feel as though a part of me... has died and blown away...
And I am just an empty shell... `with nothing left to say,
The echo's in the distance... are ringing in my ears...
And as the sun begins to rise.... I wipe away the tears,
Its strange it seems... how life goes on... while yours is crashing down...
And though one "love"is at its end... another one is found,
And so it goes.. the circle... as it was ment to be...
We laugh.. we cry.. we live.. and die... and then our soul is free,
So I will gather the pieces... of my scattered wind blown heart...
And never look over my shoulder... at my world thats torn apart.
sg