My sexuality is scaring me

[monk]

How do those of you who live out do it. Did you abandon who you were or was this just another part. What about being alienated? Was there ever an end to the confusion?

I didn't abandon who I was. It was always part of me.

Alienated? I truly discovered that those who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter.

The only confusion was before I accepted who I am. When I came out, I stepped into pure common sense.

It gets better, believe me.

[hank]

They will once they see you put your tounge down another guys throat just give it time, those who love you will come around and the once that don't will reveal the monster behind the mask.

I am not evensure they are wrong, the desire is there, but OS that because I was molested as a boy

[hank]

I didn't abandon who I was. It was always part of me.

Alienated? I truly discovered that those who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter.

The only confusion was before I accepted who I am. When I came out, I stepped into pure common sense.

It gets better, believe me.

Thanks

I am trying to see a therapist, help me sort through all of this

[hank]

Thanks archubbycub. I don't think church stops me, I don't think God cares about what I do with my genitalia

And I am past praying the gay away

[TLC1970JAN]

From what I've read, it seems you are searching for acceptance on a national scale.

Just a couple quick things... 1. you don't need to be crowned by the LGBT to accept yourself, 2. Since you're catholic, you don't need acceptance by the church (according to Jesus, those that pray alone are more blessed than the hypocrites that pray together) As far as politics, until big brother starts sleeping with you, you're fine.

Hank, you said there are social activities in Houston... Gay clubs, etc. Try to stop dwelling so much on why you are the way you are. Simply try to enjoy life. Stop by the clubs, you don't get labeled at the door. Enjoy yourself. You may even find someone directly that can help and support you and the way you're confused right now.

When you come out, people will not put a parade together just for you, so don't look for that. Just be happy for now and TAKE YOUR TIME. Life will unfold for you one day at a time. Be PATIENT my friend. It seems like you want everything said and done immediately so you can get on with your life. Enjoy the trip from point A to B or you'll miss so much in between. I'll get off my soap box.

Best wishes my friend!

[TLC1970JAN]

Over the years I have studied many different religions seeking "the truth"

I was raised Roman Catholic and the most difficult part of staying open minded is to try and overcome the "hard wired" teachings of my youth.

I say this because I think your confusion stems from the hard wiring, from your abuse trauma and other things you've been through.

You must dig through all those things and clear them up before you can see "yourself" clearly.

[hank]

I am a convert, before the Catholic church I was a godless hethan(haha). I have thought of hitting up the gay bar, jusy haven't followed through

[hank]

Perhapse, it was convenient for my folks to bait and switch with that that is one of the reasons I am seeking therapy. No memory wha so ever

[TLC1970JAN]

Give it a shot.

Just remember not to drink too much and maintain your bearing so you can interpret your feelings and emotions

[hank]

I am nervous.