07-27-2012, 11:41 PM
I don't know about anyone else here, but I am at a stalemate with myself. I do not want to be gay/bi. Anyone else ever felt that way? I always wanted a wife and kids, mainly kids I can do without the wife. But being bisexual limits me completely I am not sure one person will ever be enough.
When I was younger my parents raised me to think gay was wrong. I thought it was too, and I was. They told me people choose to be gay, they still do tell me this. But in my youth I felt so out of control, I hated that I couldn't choose not to be gay as my parents said. I felt like I was purposely breaking my parents hearts. I contemplated suicide, I was depressed. I grew up and put it out of my hea
Now it is surfacing again this feeling of inadequacy, I tell myself I am bi/gay and I get depressed, the same damn feeling I had when I was a boy, I don't want to go through all of that again. My parents say the same thing they did before.
How do I accept myself how do I make it through the depression again, suicide hasn't come up again but I fear it might.
When I was younger my parents raised me to think gay was wrong. I thought it was too, and I was. They told me people choose to be gay, they still do tell me this. But in my youth I felt so out of control, I hated that I couldn't choose not to be gay as my parents said. I felt like I was purposely breaking my parents hearts. I contemplated suicide, I was depressed. I grew up and put it out of my hea
Now it is surfacing again this feeling of inadequacy, I tell myself I am bi/gay and I get depressed, the same damn feeling I had when I was a boy, I don't want to go through all of that again. My parents say the same thing they did before.
How do I accept myself how do I make it through the depression again, suicide hasn't come up again but I fear it might.