11-26-2012, 02:15 AM
brituc1 Wrote:Marv: that's what scares me. I'm turning too resilient. I'm almost cold. I can barely tell my own 4 year old nephew I love him. It feels weird and foreign. How on Earth can I be emotional to others.
I wish I could help you there but I myself am a professional at keeping people at arms length. I try to give people the benefit of the doubt. One thing that got me through when I was depressed after coming out was the fact that my nieces still loved me even when the adults were busy throwing labels around about me. Emotions don't always have to be spoken. Since I am so reserved myself I try to translate my positive emotions into action since I dont like talking. I try to show the people around me that the words of love and compassion are not just words that are spoken. I have been burned in the past but I try not to hold on to the negative emotions in my heart for to long because it wont do me any good.