11-28-2012, 07:29 AM
My life has been going so well lately. but right now i feel like I'm about to cry. Regardless of all the friends I've made over the past month I still feel so empty. I am really lonely out of work. I can't help but think this is how its always going to be; not to mention i just feel upset because i don't have a best friend i can tell this too anymore. This computer can only do so much. I haven't had a real hug in a really long time---like at least 5 years. I just feel crummy and with the holidays here---i chose to work on all the holidays because i know i am going to be alone. but that doesn't solve the problem. i need to meet someone that right for me but with school over and out of my life; i guess i just don't know how to make friends in the real world without looking like a real creep. Everyday I try to look my nicest but every guy customer just walks by. not the slightest bit interested. I feel ugly. I have bee trying so hard lately, doing my eyebrows and my hair and putting on my most charming smile----nothing. am I ugly? Am I always going to be single? I haven't even been on a real date yet! I think I'm going to go cry now. :frown: