Confused - Stressed and Depressed and Embarrassed

[Rainbowmum]

Hello Solemner ,

First let me say welcome to GaySpeak.
Porn be it straight or gay is not the end all , even if you get aroused with gay porn , it still does not make you gay.

I feel that you are trying to label this too much.
It is possible that you are Bisexual closeted or not.

I am more concerned with the paranoia and disassociation that you are feeling .
Never underestimate depression and the power it has to disable you.
I have to agree with your girlfriend , you do need to see a professional about this, if for no other reason than peace of mind and tools to help you cope.

There is nothing for you to feel ashamed about , most of the animal kingdom us included are bi , it is 100% natural , questioning your sexuality is also 100% natural.

Please seek out professional help and stay in touch with us here.
As much as we will support you , it is still no substitute for professional help.

We are all here for you.

[solemner]

went to doctor on christmas day. he's suggests i should go on anti-anxiety pills but should also try seeing a counsellor as well. anybody had any experiences with such pills?

[megumidesu]

went to doctor on christmas day. he's suggests i should go on anti-anxiety pills but should also try seeing a counsellor as well. anybody had any experiences with such pills?

anti anxiety medication , at least the stuff i take , usually takes a while to have an effect . so please don't give up or feel bad if it doesn't work (or seem to work) for a few weeks , it just takes some time to really really kick in ~

just try to hold on to the fact that these pills will really help you eventually . as long as you keep taking them , you'll be able to feel better and get the appropriate help that you deserve ~

[mihai]

just let yourself go for 1 night... see what happens. My dad hasn;t passed away but he didn;t interacted with me that much and stuff , my mom is really open and didn;t had a problem with this , nearly to the point she doesn;t care.
letting yourself go for 1 night with no overthinking will help

[Caraway]

What kind of anti-anxiety pills? I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks from almost 4 months. (I made a similar thread because I'm terribly depressed..)
I don't want to sound discouraging but I have a pretty bad experience with anti-anxiety medications.For those 4 months my life was ruined by the 80 mg of propanolol that was prescribed to me.These things simply manage your anxiety but don't cure it!
I won't go into details why but currently I'm trying to get rid of that sh*t because in fact it only made me more anxious about my health since it's a beta blocker that decreases the heart rate.Actually it has nothing to do with anxiety but it is typically prescribed for it to manage panic attacks and such things...

My advice - don't ever start anti-anxiety medications!This is the opinion of many therapists as well and I suggest You that the best solution to Your problems is to visit one.I understand You pretty well because I'm always over analysing myself too and I never had the support from my family..It's like We are from different dimensions.Sometimes even if You are familiar with who you are when anxiety enters the picture things like increasing depression will follow and You start to get totally confused about yourself...

Hold on, You are not the only one and there is a solution even to the most terrible anxiety and depression.