02-01-2013, 10:03 AM
Hey.
So, Ive been thinking a lot of late and realized ive never used a condom bar with women.
I know even when I look back onto it I think just how lucky I am that im still Negative and have only ever had 1 STD, with the numerous hook ups ive had
Now before use lot go judgemental on my arse listen to my story.
I was always taught the importance of condoms and safety surrounding sexual encounters from a young age (12-13) and I always was very careful when having sexual encounters with women until I was around 17-19 where I became exclusive to men and men only.
The last 3 times I slept with woman where in Thailand where I bare backed without consequences.
I had this attitude like nothing was ever going to happen to me ill never get anything from having unprotected sex and actually "got off" on the fact of bare backing.
But when its come to sleeping with men ive never been able to use condoms as if I bottom it ends up hurting me to much and I just cant do it and well me wearing a condom is one thing but being able to achieve climax wearing one, yeah good luck.
So it went to the point where i was potentially physically harming myself on purpose but didnt see it that way until 3 of my closes friends contracted HIV and one has since died of HIV/AIDS.
Im just so pleased im now in a stable, loving, committed relationship where we've both been tested 3 times now and where still negative so it seems as if ive come out of this with luck on my side but its made me think how many of us don't have this luck and become positive after a few or even one encounter.
I guess i just needed to vent this out as its something im embarrassed about but glad ive come out on the side still intact.
Question is how many other men have gone and done wreckless encounters such as myself as all the men in question that ive topped had let me "breed" them without hesitation so is it just me or does more awareness need to be spread within our community and not just us but the whole world as i believe where in a day and age where HIV should have already died out but it seems to be becoming ever so much more prevalent in my local area and i think the younger generation are not seeing it as a death scentance any more due to the medications made available here in Aus.
So, Ive been thinking a lot of late and realized ive never used a condom bar with women.
I know even when I look back onto it I think just how lucky I am that im still Negative and have only ever had 1 STD, with the numerous hook ups ive had
Now before use lot go judgemental on my arse listen to my story.
I was always taught the importance of condoms and safety surrounding sexual encounters from a young age (12-13) and I always was very careful when having sexual encounters with women until I was around 17-19 where I became exclusive to men and men only.
The last 3 times I slept with woman where in Thailand where I bare backed without consequences.
I had this attitude like nothing was ever going to happen to me ill never get anything from having unprotected sex and actually "got off" on the fact of bare backing.
But when its come to sleeping with men ive never been able to use condoms as if I bottom it ends up hurting me to much and I just cant do it and well me wearing a condom is one thing but being able to achieve climax wearing one, yeah good luck.
So it went to the point where i was potentially physically harming myself on purpose but didnt see it that way until 3 of my closes friends contracted HIV and one has since died of HIV/AIDS.
Im just so pleased im now in a stable, loving, committed relationship where we've both been tested 3 times now and where still negative so it seems as if ive come out of this with luck on my side but its made me think how many of us don't have this luck and become positive after a few or even one encounter.
I guess i just needed to vent this out as its something im embarrassed about but glad ive come out on the side still intact.
Question is how many other men have gone and done wreckless encounters such as myself as all the men in question that ive topped had let me "breed" them without hesitation so is it just me or does more awareness need to be spread within our community and not just us but the whole world as i believe where in a day and age where HIV should have already died out but it seems to be becoming ever so much more prevalent in my local area and i think the younger generation are not seeing it as a death scentance any more due to the medications made available here in Aus.
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