02-04-2013, 05:16 PM
Most of you may know, I have been suffering from depression for a while. I was really depressed because I was lonely, I was a failure (got fired and couldn't get employed was months), I didn't make a single friend in Uni, and especially over the fact that I could never have kids. The fact that I can never have kids was what hurts me the most. I love kids (not love love, I'm not a pedophile), I've always imagined myself as a family guy when I was young, and that's why I chose teaching as my profession. However, being gay pretty much guarantee I would never have my own child.
My depression became so bad that I literally cried myself to sleep, and lost hope. However, from the beginning of last year, I managed to get past this obstacle in my life thanks to most of you.
I've learned that most of problems won't go away if I gave up. Then I also realized that I only have 1 life, might as well make it good. I know that somethings like having a kid would never work for me but it's okay.
I've been doing a lot of Volunteer work in the last few years, and I noticed this boy (about 12 years old). That boy reminded me of myself when I was young... The shy skinny boy who have a lot to say but is too afraid to say it. I remember seeing him a lot but never really talk to him. Most of the other volunteer works never talked to him either but they all know that he's a good boy.
Anyway, I started to communicate with this boy, and introduce him to the other volunteer members, as he got closer to us, he started to talk more and beginning to be a little mischievous (which is good since he is a kid). He also started to attach to me a lot, like he'll follow me around and talk to me the most. Anyway, basically, I'm starting to treat him like a son that I would never have, and I'm actually enjoying it. So now here's the problem. Should I continue to treat him like a son? Or should I try not be too close with that kid?
My depression became so bad that I literally cried myself to sleep, and lost hope. However, from the beginning of last year, I managed to get past this obstacle in my life thanks to most of you.
I've learned that most of problems won't go away if I gave up. Then I also realized that I only have 1 life, might as well make it good. I know that somethings like having a kid would never work for me but it's okay.
I've been doing a lot of Volunteer work in the last few years, and I noticed this boy (about 12 years old). That boy reminded me of myself when I was young... The shy skinny boy who have a lot to say but is too afraid to say it. I remember seeing him a lot but never really talk to him. Most of the other volunteer works never talked to him either but they all know that he's a good boy.
Anyway, I started to communicate with this boy, and introduce him to the other volunteer members, as he got closer to us, he started to talk more and beginning to be a little mischievous (which is good since he is a kid). He also started to attach to me a lot, like he'll follow me around and talk to me the most. Anyway, basically, I'm starting to treat him like a son that I would never have, and I'm actually enjoying it. So now here's the problem. Should I continue to treat him like a son? Or should I try not be too close with that kid?