03-05-2013, 07:29 AM
Hello everyone.
I wish I could say that I've come here to make friends, but the sad truth is that I'm looking for support and encouragement. I've begun to despair that I will ever have a healthy relationship.
The thing is, I still don't understand my own sexual identity. I like women more than men in just about every respect. Compared with men, I'd much rather look at women, touch them, talk to them, and be intimate with them. Yet I can't perform sexually with women. All my sexual desires involve men. The only way I ever seem to get aroused is to imagine myself as a woman submitting to a man.
As a result, I don't have close relationships with either women or men. I tend to have a lot of female friends which I keep at a distance, and I satisfy my sexual cravings through casual encounters with men. I know this isn't healthy. When I was younger, I assumed that everything would work itself out eventually -- I would either develop a sexual appetite for women or start desiring intimacy with the men I have sex with. Nevertheless, neither has happened. Many years have passed, and things are worse than ever.
Has anyone else been through something like this? Does it even make sense?
Matt
I wish I could say that I've come here to make friends, but the sad truth is that I'm looking for support and encouragement. I've begun to despair that I will ever have a healthy relationship.
The thing is, I still don't understand my own sexual identity. I like women more than men in just about every respect. Compared with men, I'd much rather look at women, touch them, talk to them, and be intimate with them. Yet I can't perform sexually with women. All my sexual desires involve men. The only way I ever seem to get aroused is to imagine myself as a woman submitting to a man.
As a result, I don't have close relationships with either women or men. I tend to have a lot of female friends which I keep at a distance, and I satisfy my sexual cravings through casual encounters with men. I know this isn't healthy. When I was younger, I assumed that everything would work itself out eventually -- I would either develop a sexual appetite for women or start desiring intimacy with the men I have sex with. Nevertheless, neither has happened. Many years have passed, and things are worse than ever.
Has anyone else been through something like this? Does it even make sense?
Matt