04-26-2013, 12:37 AM
Hey everyone,
I was Hayden, now I'm Wade. I guess there's a lot of folks leaving and returning lately, and I'm one of 'em. There's a couple reasons I left in the first place: I'm too impulsive for my own good. I have a tendency to go on sprees of destruction because I think it will make me feel better for some reason. Throw out old photos, old childhood artifacts, close facebook and online accounts, etc. Then I regret it. And that's what I did here.
I also tended to obsess over threads and posts I made (worrying if I upset anyone, if people think I'm stupid, and other ridiculous insecure thoughts) to the point that it was really very unhealthy. But that's no reason to leave. I just need to be a bit more mature (now you're reading the thoughts of a man that he should keep to himself if he were smart). And I really missed it. I've been very alone and lacking friendship for the last three years and I found real solace here and met some genuine and kind people. I'll probably leave again at some point again during a fit of sadness and self pity (because that's just kind of what I do), but I hope not for long.
Thanks,
Wade
I was Hayden, now I'm Wade. I guess there's a lot of folks leaving and returning lately, and I'm one of 'em. There's a couple reasons I left in the first place: I'm too impulsive for my own good. I have a tendency to go on sprees of destruction because I think it will make me feel better for some reason. Throw out old photos, old childhood artifacts, close facebook and online accounts, etc. Then I regret it. And that's what I did here.
I also tended to obsess over threads and posts I made (worrying if I upset anyone, if people think I'm stupid, and other ridiculous insecure thoughts) to the point that it was really very unhealthy. But that's no reason to leave. I just need to be a bit more mature (now you're reading the thoughts of a man that he should keep to himself if he were smart). And I really missed it. I've been very alone and lacking friendship for the last three years and I found real solace here and met some genuine and kind people. I'll probably leave again at some point again during a fit of sadness and self pity (because that's just kind of what I do), but I hope not for long.
Thanks,
Wade