06-01-2013, 06:31 PM
Hey everybody I'm new to the forums and I could just really use some advice. About a year ago I came out to my family and they have been very supportive and accepting. I just recently came out to a few of my friends and they have been very supportive and great to me as well. Lately I have been embracing my sexuality and have been very inspired to get back into film and make videos. My goal is to make videos to help and inspire people who are gay or feel outcast-ed. I don't want people who are in the closet to feel they are alone in the world, there are people out there who will love you no matter who you are!
With that being said, I must now contradict myself. Lately I have been having a lot of anxiety about relationships. I have never been in one with a guy or a girl so I am very inexperienced and very nervous about it. The emotional and romantic parts I am very excited about but the physical really scares me. I'm afraid I won't like it or what if I'm actually not gay and I like girls instead. Throughout my life I know I have liked guys until this very moment where I feel like I'm confused. I find girls to be very beautiful but I have actually never lusted over a girl before. I feel like my drive is very low right now and I'm just not really in the mood a lot of the time I'm not sure. These feelings manifested ever since I laid eyes on this guy who I have very strong feelings for. I have never felt this way about anyone before and i want to try dating but I'm just very frightened of the physical aspects of it. I've never been really interested in porn it doesn't really turn me on that much. I know I sound like a complaining bitch, but I feel so lonely right now and I could really use some advice.
I feel the need to add this dancing monkey =D
With that being said, I must now contradict myself. Lately I have been having a lot of anxiety about relationships. I have never been in one with a guy or a girl so I am very inexperienced and very nervous about it. The emotional and romantic parts I am very excited about but the physical really scares me. I'm afraid I won't like it or what if I'm actually not gay and I like girls instead. Throughout my life I know I have liked guys until this very moment where I feel like I'm confused. I find girls to be very beautiful but I have actually never lusted over a girl before. I feel like my drive is very low right now and I'm just not really in the mood a lot of the time I'm not sure. These feelings manifested ever since I laid eyes on this guy who I have very strong feelings for. I have never felt this way about anyone before and i want to try dating but I'm just very frightened of the physical aspects of it. I've never been really interested in porn it doesn't really turn me on that much. I know I sound like a complaining bitch, but I feel so lonely right now and I could really use some advice.
I feel the need to add this dancing monkey =D