06-18-2013, 05:01 PM
Marriage - (groan)....
I so badly wanted to marry my first lover... I had these notions of marriage, monogamy, a life of being together until we both died arm in arm in the middle of the night in our sleep. Awwww...
Then life stepped in and bludgeoned me with realities, it beat that crap right out of my system.
By the 4th relationship I realized that it was going to be serial monogamy of tiny relationships until the monster comes out to play (Abusive men appear to be my ideal mate). By the end of my 6th relationship (14 long years of perpetual lies and half truths with little to no real love) I realized that marriage is an institution that is well past its prime.
Men are either abusers or cheaters - Thus the idea of marriage is pretty much a stupid idea as I need to be able to get away when their true self is revealed.
It will have to be a real special guy who gets me to walk down any damned aisle and say 'I do' - He is going to have to figure out some way to convince me that marriage is more than just a quaint, old fashioned tradition that has no real meaning in the modern world.
I so badly wanted to marry my first lover... I had these notions of marriage, monogamy, a life of being together until we both died arm in arm in the middle of the night in our sleep. Awwww...
Then life stepped in and bludgeoned me with realities, it beat that crap right out of my system.
By the 4th relationship I realized that it was going to be serial monogamy of tiny relationships until the monster comes out to play (Abusive men appear to be my ideal mate). By the end of my 6th relationship (14 long years of perpetual lies and half truths with little to no real love) I realized that marriage is an institution that is well past its prime.
Men are either abusers or cheaters - Thus the idea of marriage is pretty much a stupid idea as I need to be able to get away when their true self is revealed.
It will have to be a real special guy who gets me to walk down any damned aisle and say 'I do' - He is going to have to figure out some way to convince me that marriage is more than just a quaint, old fashioned tradition that has no real meaning in the modern world.