I like to starve

[Lilmy87]

Don't worry Nick, that is the main thing, don't worry. Just find your own way to eat in a reasonably healthy way, doesn't matter what other people think of it. Just what works for you.

[Nick9]

There is so much focus on food, endless cooking programmes and recipes, restaurant reviews waxing about what a certain dish 'should' be like, and trends in food, down the the fixation about diets and moralising about weight. It can make you feel as though food ought to be really important to you, rather just important for you

Don't worry Nick, that is the main thing, don't worry. Just find your own way to eat in a reasonably healthy way, doesn't matter what other people think of it. Just what works for you.

You know, I can understand that this focusing on food can start anorexia. I can see it in my family. The person has to listen several times a day to "you have to eat" "look at yourself" "you will be ill" "they will force you to stay in the hospital" "you haven't eaten anything AGAIN" - from the family and doctors.
I am so sick of it. I am not the one they focus on, but I hear it and it's like they are telling it to me too.
Sometimes (not all the time) I don't eat just to prove them wrong.
stupid, stupid, stupid

[Rainbowmum]

Have you tried getting an appointment with a dietitian ?
They are absolutely great and could suggest supplements to your diet,as well as techniques to get you back on the right track, in the meantime perhaps some protein shakes like Sustagen could help.

I am worried about your blood pressure and blood-sugar levels.
Please ask your doctor about a referral to a dietitian.

[ardus]

I don't think you need to see a doctor, I think you need a good smack upside the head and someone to give you a kick in the ass every now and then.

Quit starving your body dude, you know it's the wrong answer, eat some good wholesome food, everything will start to feel better.

If you don't like to cook there are lots of prepared options.

In the words of Calamity Jane, "without exception those that don't eat fails to survive".

Richard

[Nick9]

Ardus, you may be right. I'll ask around who can slap my ass. Oh... that was not what you meant, was it?

Mum, my BP is ok, my sugar too, I just need pills for too fast heart beat. I guess it has something to do with the severe anemia.
When I look at examples of menus made by nutritionists, I always give up under the weight of so much food. Maybe if I could find someone who will take it slowly, it would be easier.
Thanks

[Bowyn Aerrow]

Ardus, you may be right. I'll ask around who can slap my ass. Oh... that was not what you meant, was it?

Mum, my BP is ok, my sugar too, I just need pills for too fast heart beat. I guess it has something to do with the severe anemia.
When I look at examples of menus made by nutritionists, I always give up under the weight of so much food. Maybe if I could find someone who will take it slowly, it would be easier.
Thanks

Anemia, high heart rate, dizziness and poor diet is a good reason to see doctor.

I was talking to Danny and even that idiot child was able to jump to the conclusion of dizziness while standing - I got so far as 'and he says that he can't stand to cook because....' Danny interjected with 'He gets dizzy!'

BP is variable - I have low blood pressure 'normally' I can go to a doctor at any time and they will say 'oh its a little low, no big problem' - but it is a big problem when I am not at doctor and my BP plummets to the point where I see black spots and get a bit unsteady - its a bigger problem when I stand up and wake up laying on the floor... over the coffee table or whatever I happen to land on as I pass out.

Blood sugar is also variable. One's blood sugar is lowest in the morning before breakfast and highest after a meal. As i have recently discovered 'hunger' is not defined by the symptoms of hypoglycemia....

I can't believe that you will lecture me in PM's for being a wee bit tired and anemic and for not eating while you yourself are doing it. What is this Do as Nick says week not as Nick does?

Why do you feel justified in telling me to go see a doctor over and over again while you yourself refuse to go? What is that thing called - hypocrisy?

You and I are on the same page here Nick, poor diet and health issues that become worse if we don't eat or eat properly.

Yes people are going to nag you, because they are concerned. If you have people telling you 'you are too thin', 'you look sickly' it is really time to sit down with a doctor and start addressing things.

IDK how its done in the Czech R. In the states one goes to their primary care physician who refers you to specialists. In this case you need a nutritionist/dietician.

With your fast heart rate and taking pills for it, your thyroid problem and whatever else that may ail you you may need a special diet which any advise I give you based on my nutritional needs may end up killing you or aggravating preexisting conditions.

You also may need a full blood workup, Liver Panel, CBC (complete blood count) and electrolyte and salts and sugars and vitamins and minerals and all of that stuff to see where you are.

A nutritionist will help you to stream line your diet to meet your particular needs. Based on your blood chemistry and whatever it is you are lacking.

If you pass out at work or on the way to work one day because your not eating you will wake up with EMT surrounding you and they will take you to hospital and then it will be out of your hands.

Take a preemptive approach here and go to your doctor and you can maintain some control over what happens. If the day comes you are sent to the ER you may end up being committed to the psych ward and end up with a tube through the nose and down the gullet.

I don't know the laws of the Czech R, in the states a doctor can slap a three day hold on you sending you to the psych ward and once that happens they can keep you a virtual prisoner by slapping more holds on you for days, weeks, months and sometimes years.

[Nick9]

sigh

I don't know why I have different rules for you and different for myself. I guess you are more important to me than I am to myself. Or maybe I think I am invincible.

the truth is, today, when I walk around the house, I keep my hand on the wall to not fall. Not all days are this bad, but there is a reason why I finally "came out" with my long term problems.

I am about to make dinner. I think I will make it sitting on the floor as many times before. If anyone can explain to me, why sitting on the floor feels much better (when it comes to fainting) than sitting in a chair, I'll be glad.

so, yes, anything you say, I am at the end of my rope today

[Bowyn Aerrow]

Where is G? Why can't he cook? What about your sister? Who is there to take care of you Nick?

If you are this unstable you need to be seated and remain seated and have some one tend to you....

[BorneoJake]

You have to push yourself into eating more food, trust me on this. I didn't eat for 3 days straight one time and i blacked out. It was an extremely scary moment in my life and i learned I have to eat, even if my mind tells me no. The best way to start eating more is to take small steps. To me you sound like a grazer you like to nibble on something small and eat in smaller proportions. What you could do is eat something every 2 hours, in small proportions. Like a small bowl of cereal, a fiber bar, some fruit, veggies, maybe a small piece of meat for ya.

As for the kitchen situation, you just gotta look at it in a positive way . Somedays I just don't have the heart to cook, but I get my lazy butt off the couch and do it. Its a challenge, but if you go in with an open mind you'll get in the mood. Make cooking fun put on some music or a movie. You don't even have to be in the kitchen all day to make an amazing meal. There are a lot of good recipes online for short simple recipes you can make in 10 minutes. As soon as you master some easier recipes, you eventually will want to move onto more exciting ones.

I know this sounds easier said then done, but thats why you got to make small little changes at a time to create bigger changes. I hope for the best for you!

[Nick9]

I am not feeling any better today. So, I took a deep breath and made an appointmet with a doctor, a specialist. I am really nervous about letting anybody in. But I will have two months to get used to the idea. Meanwhile, I will follow your advice.
Thanks again to all of you who took the time to answer me *hug*