New Guy New Gay? And My Story.
Capricorn
09-10-2013, 07:19 AM
Hi All, New to the forum and here is my story. I am 47 and own my own automotive restoration shop restoring american muscle cars. I am kinda new to being gay, well I had a few gay experiences way back in high school. Fast forward a few years to when I met a wonderful woman and got married (18 years). Great marriage but I always felt there was something missing but just could not admit to myself what I really knew it was. She cheated on me last year and we are now divorced but we remain very good friends and work together every day. She knows about my new life and has no hard feelings. I am sure this all sounds strange but wait there is more!
I have always looked at other guys and felt inside that I have always been gay. Late last year I decided to try one of those on line dating sites just to look for a friend that I could talk to about all these feelings and emotions I was now having. I received a email from a guy close to my age in the same city I am in that had just lost his partner of 15 years to cancer. He found out the day after that his partner had been cheating on him for a couple years prior to his passing. He was also looking for a friend to talk to. We met for dinner and had a great time.
We quickly became very good friends in a short amount of time. In early February he asked if I could come over to his shop (he is also a small business owner) for a talk. The "talk" was to tell me he was developing feelings for me and wanted to know if the feeling was mutual. Oh was it ever!
Anyway long story short we have been together for 7 months now and are very much in love and committed to each other (complete with rings). He is everything I want in a man and even some things I did not know I wanted. We often talk about the future and growing old together. Seems like a short time but when you feel it is right you just go with it. Not saying all is perfect as there are a few issues ( his possible addiction to porn, a topic for a later conversation here) that I am sure we can overcome with time.
I can now say that I am truly happy and that uneasy feeling about who I am is now gone. But since I am new to this community, I am sure I will have questions from time to time and this forum seems to have a lot of really great people with great advice.
Thanks for listening.
Paul
I have always looked at other guys and felt inside that I have always been gay. Late last year I decided to try one of those on line dating sites just to look for a friend that I could talk to about all these feelings and emotions I was now having. I received a email from a guy close to my age in the same city I am in that had just lost his partner of 15 years to cancer. He found out the day after that his partner had been cheating on him for a couple years prior to his passing. He was also looking for a friend to talk to. We met for dinner and had a great time.
We quickly became very good friends in a short amount of time. In early February he asked if I could come over to his shop (he is also a small business owner) for a talk. The "talk" was to tell me he was developing feelings for me and wanted to know if the feeling was mutual. Oh was it ever!
Anyway long story short we have been together for 7 months now and are very much in love and committed to each other (complete with rings). He is everything I want in a man and even some things I did not know I wanted. We often talk about the future and growing old together. Seems like a short time but when you feel it is right you just go with it. Not saying all is perfect as there are a few issues ( his possible addiction to porn, a topic for a later conversation here) that I am sure we can overcome with time.
I can now say that I am truly happy and that uneasy feeling about who I am is now gone. But since I am new to this community, I am sure I will have questions from time to time and this forum seems to have a lot of really great people with great advice.
Thanks for listening.
Paul
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