10-19-2013, 04:22 PM
Hi Guys, My name is Alan,
Just the high points. I have known I was attracted to both girls and guys since I was in the 5th grade. I have always had a preference for guys but for multiple reasons I decided to live my life as a straight man. I wanted the typical American dream. You know; a house with the white picket fence, two cars a dog and 2.3 children. Children were what I wanted most.
I was scared when I was young and afraid my friends and family would find out about my attraction to men. Although I did experiment with homosexuality before I was married, my want for children, and a “normal†lifestyle outweighed my want for a gay relationship. However, I always felt like something was missing.
In November of 2012 after 22 years of marriage, my wife and I separated, and in March of 2013, she filed for divorce.
Well, I decided since I had lived most of my life as a straight man and had what I wanted, “A Child†perhaps it was time to enjoy the rest of me.
So here I am Guys, locked and loaded but, extremely ignorant about what it means to be gay in today’s world. Therefore, I am here to make friends, ask questions, and get advice.
Thanks in advance for being there.
Alan
Just the high points. I have known I was attracted to both girls and guys since I was in the 5th grade. I have always had a preference for guys but for multiple reasons I decided to live my life as a straight man. I wanted the typical American dream. You know; a house with the white picket fence, two cars a dog and 2.3 children. Children were what I wanted most.
I was scared when I was young and afraid my friends and family would find out about my attraction to men. Although I did experiment with homosexuality before I was married, my want for children, and a “normal†lifestyle outweighed my want for a gay relationship. However, I always felt like something was missing.
In November of 2012 after 22 years of marriage, my wife and I separated, and in March of 2013, she filed for divorce.
Well, I decided since I had lived most of my life as a straight man and had what I wanted, “A Child†perhaps it was time to enjoy the rest of me.
So here I am Guys, locked and loaded but, extremely ignorant about what it means to be gay in today’s world. Therefore, I am here to make friends, ask questions, and get advice.
Thanks in advance for being there.
Alan