I cannot understand the way I feel

[Rob]

Tangerine, I understand your need to live your relationship more freely, you're more than entitled to that, just don't force your boyfriend to come out. He seems very sensitive on this issue, so try to talk to him as kindly and delicately as you can, let him feel you're there for him, that you care for him, let him understand your needs because, reading your description, this relationship sounds a bit unbalanced. Talking is the best way to solve these kinds of issues. Think of the words you'd love to hear if you were in his shoes and you'll be on the right path. At least you'll have done your best.

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