VileKyle Wrote:The way people view me is completely different from how I view myself.
Apparently I was intimidating to those I met most recently. Some people might still feel that way, which is why they still don't really talk to me. Those who decided to break the ice found out that I'm just really quiet and reserved, which is the real reason I don't really go out of my way to be outgoing and openly friendly. The friends I have now stuck around because I'm really accepting of them and very nonjudgmental. It's really easy for them to be themselves around me instead of the masks they have to wear around the rest of society. Meanwhile, I still wear my figurative mask around everyone else.
Yeah, thats kind of the way I am too. Thats why I dont have "fake" friends like my sister does. She's super friendly and will let anybody hang around her and calls them friends. I cant do that. If they are not real human beings, I dont want them around me.
Thats how the few real friends I do have, have stuck with me for so many years.
I was living with my sister once, and a couple of her co-workers "met" me once, and apparently the news around the office was that I was a huge asshole, since Im not like my sister, and act like everybody is my BFF. I said HI to them, and went on my way...which I guess, makes me a HUGE asshole.
Anyway...one of her co-workers called for her one day, and I answered the phone. The woman asked if my sister was there, and I told her she was not in from work yet. Then there was this long pause.......then she said "I dont want to offend you, but you dont sound like a huge asshole at all".
I laughed and could only imagine what my sister said to these people.
I asked the woman why she said that, and she said it was rumored around the office that I was a huge asshole, because I didnt "talk" to so and so, when I was introduced to them.
I laughed. I didnt know what to say to that, so I just told her I would let my sister know she called.
I told my sister about that when she got home, and she said "yeah, I tried to explain that you are somebody you have to get to know, before you get to KNOW...otherwise you are a wallflower".
Which is pretty much dead on, for a description of me.