02-18-2014, 11:05 PM
Hey guys, I finally told that guy I have a crush on I'm bi. I didn't tell him I'm attracted to him though, I thought he would freak out if his reaction was negative.
But it wasn't. I told him while taking advantage of what my uncle said a week ago (he is a homophobe, no point explaining that now), saying I'm pissed but he didn't quite get why I was angry. So then I said I took that personally... And he sounded like he didn't want to believe he was hearing that, started to ask me what I meant and to avoid the word "gay". Then I just said "I told you my uncle was saying hateful things about gays and that I took that personally. Do the math".
He was still avoiding the "G" word, but he started asking me repeatedly if I was sure about this. I explained that I saw how people on campus (including my friends) treated a guy we know is openly gay and himself (he is effeminate, my friends don't believe for a second he is straight, and neither do I), and I said I don't want that.
I took him as an example, saying he could just let it go and pretend he didn't hear it because they're making fun of "something" he is not. And that I wouldn't like to be made fun of for who I am. Then he started mentioning some stuff his own psychologist said when he was younger, stuff like "you don't need to be if you don't want to", because people "laughed at him so much he started believing he was gay" uh huh.
I don't think he believed me, especially because I told him I wasn't sure about it because I wanted to keep my escape route. But with all this psychobabble and "I go to clubs with my friends and blablabla" bullshit he mentioned I think he might be gay. I go to clubs and get girls too, and that doesn't change the fact I'm also into guys.
Well, whatever his sexuality, I showed him I'm someone he can talk to about it whenever he needs to. He said this doesn't change a thing, and I surely hope he is serious... But I'm keeping my hopes up.
But it wasn't. I told him while taking advantage of what my uncle said a week ago (he is a homophobe, no point explaining that now), saying I'm pissed but he didn't quite get why I was angry. So then I said I took that personally... And he sounded like he didn't want to believe he was hearing that, started to ask me what I meant and to avoid the word "gay". Then I just said "I told you my uncle was saying hateful things about gays and that I took that personally. Do the math".
He was still avoiding the "G" word, but he started asking me repeatedly if I was sure about this. I explained that I saw how people on campus (including my friends) treated a guy we know is openly gay and himself (he is effeminate, my friends don't believe for a second he is straight, and neither do I), and I said I don't want that.
I took him as an example, saying he could just let it go and pretend he didn't hear it because they're making fun of "something" he is not. And that I wouldn't like to be made fun of for who I am. Then he started mentioning some stuff his own psychologist said when he was younger, stuff like "you don't need to be if you don't want to", because people "laughed at him so much he started believing he was gay" uh huh.
I don't think he believed me, especially because I told him I wasn't sure about it because I wanted to keep my escape route. But with all this psychobabble and "I go to clubs with my friends and blablabla" bullshit he mentioned I think he might be gay. I go to clubs and get girls too, and that doesn't change the fact I'm also into guys.
Well, whatever his sexuality, I showed him I'm someone he can talk to about it whenever he needs to. He said this doesn't change a thing, and I surely hope he is serious... But I'm keeping my hopes up.