04-05-2014, 09:12 PM
I'll try to keep it short. I'm a young man and I've to say I'm not that kind of person someone would like to date. Even though I'm in my twenties already, I still have pimples that spoil my face a lot and I'm chubby, approximately 40 pounds overweight. I do my best to take care of myself, I shower everyday, use deodorant, care for my hair, etc, but still I'm not that kind of guy someone would like to see next to him. I've never had a boyfriend, not even a hookup and I'm very quiet, introvert person.
I'm working in a shop and one of my colleagues is a unbelievably handsome guy. He looks like a male model you can see in a fashion magazines. All our female colleagues were distraught when they found out he's gay. Me and him, we've always had normal relationship, but nothing too friendly, more in a colleagues way. Most of the time I didn't even dare to look at him, as I knew for sure this guy is completely out of my reach. And now one day when I came to work, he came up to me and asked if I had plans for the evening. I said no and he then asked if I wanted to go to the cinema with him, he had two tickets. Of course, I refused, because maybe I'm ugly, but I'm not stupid and I realized immediately that there has to be some catch. A guy like him would never willingly ask out a guy like me. When I said no, he looked quite upset for some reason.
Then the next day he didn't say anything until the end of our working day when he asked if I've changed my mind about the cinema. I said no and he then decided I don't like cinema and offered some other places. I then directly asked him whom did he bet with. Although my colleagues are very nice and I doubt they would do it to me, but bet or dare was the first thing that came into my mind. That he would receive some kind of reward from someone if he took that fat, ugly guy out. He denied it all and claimed he just wanted to spend some time with me. The next day he didn't have to work, but he had left me a note to call him. I didn't.
All the time I've been thinking about the reasons behind his behavior. Why would he do it? Of course, if we discard the possibility that he likes me, because it's impossible. I know very well what I see in the mirror and no one would want to date it. But why then? He could get any guy. Why would he want to go out with me? To prove himself that he really could get any guy? Why doesn't he date someone who's more like him and shows some kind of attention to someone who probably looks so gray next to him? There's no logic at all.
I'm working in a shop and one of my colleagues is a unbelievably handsome guy. He looks like a male model you can see in a fashion magazines. All our female colleagues were distraught when they found out he's gay. Me and him, we've always had normal relationship, but nothing too friendly, more in a colleagues way. Most of the time I didn't even dare to look at him, as I knew for sure this guy is completely out of my reach. And now one day when I came to work, he came up to me and asked if I had plans for the evening. I said no and he then asked if I wanted to go to the cinema with him, he had two tickets. Of course, I refused, because maybe I'm ugly, but I'm not stupid and I realized immediately that there has to be some catch. A guy like him would never willingly ask out a guy like me. When I said no, he looked quite upset for some reason.
Then the next day he didn't say anything until the end of our working day when he asked if I've changed my mind about the cinema. I said no and he then decided I don't like cinema and offered some other places. I then directly asked him whom did he bet with. Although my colleagues are very nice and I doubt they would do it to me, but bet or dare was the first thing that came into my mind. That he would receive some kind of reward from someone if he took that fat, ugly guy out. He denied it all and claimed he just wanted to spend some time with me. The next day he didn't have to work, but he had left me a note to call him. I didn't.
All the time I've been thinking about the reasons behind his behavior. Why would he do it? Of course, if we discard the possibility that he likes me, because it's impossible. I know very well what I see in the mirror and no one would want to date it. But why then? He could get any guy. Why would he want to go out with me? To prove himself that he really could get any guy? Why doesn't he date someone who's more like him and shows some kind of attention to someone who probably looks so gray next to him? There's no logic at all.
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