10-19-2014, 07:57 PM
The last 6 months have been a rollercoaster of feelings and situations and experiences. I worked at the Grand Canyon and ended up dating a female for like little under 3 weeks and though for sure that I was bisexual and then that ended and I went to a gay spa and I hooked up with a guy and it was so amazing and I realized that females are never in the game plan again.
Then the last month I have realized something about myself that I have kept hidden ever since I was a kid when I was 13 and awoke to some feelings that were so new to me and very scarey. I have come to the conclusion about myself that I am transgender and I think I have always been that way. I mean it started or awoke in me when I was 13 and was in my sisters room trying on her panties and then the next day I tried all her clothes on and realized that I was a girl trapped in a boys body.
I have joined Tg/TS/CD forums and have realized that I am really TG and all the things they say fit me perfectly. I watched some videos on Youtube and that fit me as well and I realized that I am really this way and that its not a phase and its not going to go away because its been with me forever. When I was younger and got into some serious trouble I always wished that I was a female and that maybe my life would be better.
I am in so awe of females these days, I am not attracted to them sexually but I am attracted to them by the clothes they wear, jealous that they can have children and yeah that they have periods and that there bodies change so much over the course of there lives, I get jealous, sorry just being honest.
I do think about what it would be like to take hormones and possibly grow breasts and I do think about getting surgery but know that I will never ever be able to pay for it and save up that much money. I honestly feel that if I won the lottery or came into a large ammount of money that I would start my transition to become a woman, I feel that strong about it.
Well anyway I am ready for the back lash and the judgemental comments and perhaps you thinking I shouldn't be here because this is a gay and lesbian place and thats fine because I have joined a half dozen transgender places and making my home there. I just thought since I have been here awhile that I should just be upfront and honest about who I really am.
Then the last month I have realized something about myself that I have kept hidden ever since I was a kid when I was 13 and awoke to some feelings that were so new to me and very scarey. I have come to the conclusion about myself that I am transgender and I think I have always been that way. I mean it started or awoke in me when I was 13 and was in my sisters room trying on her panties and then the next day I tried all her clothes on and realized that I was a girl trapped in a boys body.
I have joined Tg/TS/CD forums and have realized that I am really TG and all the things they say fit me perfectly. I watched some videos on Youtube and that fit me as well and I realized that I am really this way and that its not a phase and its not going to go away because its been with me forever. When I was younger and got into some serious trouble I always wished that I was a female and that maybe my life would be better.
I am in so awe of females these days, I am not attracted to them sexually but I am attracted to them by the clothes they wear, jealous that they can have children and yeah that they have periods and that there bodies change so much over the course of there lives, I get jealous, sorry just being honest.
I do think about what it would be like to take hormones and possibly grow breasts and I do think about getting surgery but know that I will never ever be able to pay for it and save up that much money. I honestly feel that if I won the lottery or came into a large ammount of money that I would start my transition to become a woman, I feel that strong about it.
Well anyway I am ready for the back lash and the judgemental comments and perhaps you thinking I shouldn't be here because this is a gay and lesbian place and thats fine because I have joined a half dozen transgender places and making my home there. I just thought since I have been here awhile that I should just be upfront and honest about who I really am.