11-04-2014, 09:18 AM
I feel good and excited to be part of this forum where I feel I really can belong. It just feels like I can be myself right here. Anyway, my name is Jon, 28 years old from the Philippines. I only came out to friends but not to my family. Although, I suppose they already have a hint regarding my sexuality. I just did not confirm the truth to them. I dunno, I just feel so insecure, possessive and weird when it comes to my family. I don’t want to see them hurt (if they’d be), emotional or extremely joyous when I tell them. It just feels weird to me – I feel like I’ll throw up or breakdown. I just dunno. Right now, I’ll just keep that secret to myself. I’ll tell them someday at the right time because they deserve to know the truth about me. Maybe that’s also one of the reasons why I am still single until now.
OK, what decided me to join this forum is because for these past months, I have been having close encounters with my “very†self – my soul. For the past months, every single thing that is happening to my life – whether from my reading, conversations with people, solitude, travel, etc. – opened something genuine about my self. Maybe because of age, I’m nearing 30, that’s why I tend to be so pensive recently. Questions flared on my mind: who am I? What should I do with my life? Where do I go from here? I was actually a close-minded, insecure and lonely person before this awakening thing, even right now I still get those feelings, however the difference is I can cope better now.
What I am trying to say is that right now my very goal in life is to live the best of it - to live high, to not take stupid things personally, to find love and be lost in love, and as much as possible to be present moment to moment. Well, that’s me. I just want to be true to myself. I really hate regrets.
Anyway, I’m so excited to meet you guys out there – to strike a conversation and share feelings, ideas, advices and other good things. To find friendship, or even love (haha!) right here. I dunno. I just want to be like water, my friend. Just to go with the flow of life.
OK, what decided me to join this forum is because for these past months, I have been having close encounters with my “very†self – my soul. For the past months, every single thing that is happening to my life – whether from my reading, conversations with people, solitude, travel, etc. – opened something genuine about my self. Maybe because of age, I’m nearing 30, that’s why I tend to be so pensive recently. Questions flared on my mind: who am I? What should I do with my life? Where do I go from here? I was actually a close-minded, insecure and lonely person before this awakening thing, even right now I still get those feelings, however the difference is I can cope better now.
What I am trying to say is that right now my very goal in life is to live the best of it - to live high, to not take stupid things personally, to find love and be lost in love, and as much as possible to be present moment to moment. Well, that’s me. I just want to be true to myself. I really hate regrets.
Anyway, I’m so excited to meet you guys out there – to strike a conversation and share feelings, ideas, advices and other good things. To find friendship, or even love (haha!) right here. I dunno. I just want to be like water, my friend. Just to go with the flow of life.
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