11-04-2014, 10:58 PM
Hey, so my story is kind of strange:
In my teen years i only mastubated to woman and they really aroused me. Also in real life. I was always checking out girls. Then came the porn time and i watched alot of porn. Even more (more times daily i masturbated) when fast internet was out. So i got "bored" of straight porns. I figured out that I also got aroused by gay porn and it was more exciting. So i watched gay porn but also straight porn sometimes. Then I watched Domina porn. Thinking about being the one who gets fucked. And at first i found it really disgusting to look at it but then i kind of got hooked on transexual porn. So thats where i was at the end of my porn career.
I have to say that i was a complete shy kid with social anxiety till i was 24, when i went to canada for a year to face my shyness and change my life. After this i decided to talk to woman and try to figure out my real sexuality. Since im a good looking guy i had some chances and i normaly get semi-errections when i talk to attractive girls. but as soon as it gets further and we land in bed i get pretty quickly bored by what is going on and i dont get a real hard one.
At the same time i had some experiences with transexual "woman" and that was really exciting to me. So the first times i got a real hard-on and i could have sex with them activly.
Then I thought that it might come from my heavy porn consume. So i decided to dont watch porn and masturbate for 90 days. Ok, after I finished I talked to a girl to which i was attracted (just by the looks) and i got a semi-errection just by talking to her. but as soon as it went further and she wanted to sleep with me, there it was again..no arousel and no hard-on
I also had the chance to have sex with a guy sometimes but i never really tried it, because i can tell if a man is good looking in real life but i never REALLY felt the urge to kiss a man or get close to one.
So now im back at watching tranny porn again and think about going to tranny hookers again.
So what do you guys think about my wired case of sexual confusion ? And what would you do in my position ?
Thanks for the advice,
Fusion
In my teen years i only mastubated to woman and they really aroused me. Also in real life. I was always checking out girls. Then came the porn time and i watched alot of porn. Even more (more times daily i masturbated) when fast internet was out. So i got "bored" of straight porns. I figured out that I also got aroused by gay porn and it was more exciting. So i watched gay porn but also straight porn sometimes. Then I watched Domina porn. Thinking about being the one who gets fucked. And at first i found it really disgusting to look at it but then i kind of got hooked on transexual porn. So thats where i was at the end of my porn career.
I have to say that i was a complete shy kid with social anxiety till i was 24, when i went to canada for a year to face my shyness and change my life. After this i decided to talk to woman and try to figure out my real sexuality. Since im a good looking guy i had some chances and i normaly get semi-errections when i talk to attractive girls. but as soon as it gets further and we land in bed i get pretty quickly bored by what is going on and i dont get a real hard one.
At the same time i had some experiences with transexual "woman" and that was really exciting to me. So the first times i got a real hard-on and i could have sex with them activly.
Then I thought that it might come from my heavy porn consume. So i decided to dont watch porn and masturbate for 90 days. Ok, after I finished I talked to a girl to which i was attracted (just by the looks) and i got a semi-errection just by talking to her. but as soon as it went further and she wanted to sleep with me, there it was again..no arousel and no hard-on
I also had the chance to have sex with a guy sometimes but i never really tried it, because i can tell if a man is good looking in real life but i never REALLY felt the urge to kiss a man or get close to one.
So now im back at watching tranny porn again and think about going to tranny hookers again.
So what do you guys think about my wired case of sexual confusion ? And what would you do in my position ?
Thanks for the advice,
Fusion