11-29-2014, 05:35 PM
reaper Wrote:lol, this is all so true. I am older, but I do feel like a teenager getting his first taste of freedom. This is all so knew I'm no where close to getting my feet planted to the ground. I feel like I'm seeking something, but as logical as I try to be, I am clueless to what that thing is. I've also taken an odd path on this journey so far...but I'm enjoying it just the same.Becoming aware of your sexual preferences, acting on them, and coming out is a very fluid (in more ways than one) process. It's a different journey for everyone and the whole mess is often confusing. Sometimes the best thing to do is sit back, take in the sights, and enjoy the ride.
reaper Wrote:So last night was a special post Thanksgiving club night. It's usually a Sunday thing.You see? All that angst over a drunken night (and everyone has at least one if not fifty of those) and it turns out you were embarrassed for nothing. All those guys who saw you and interacted with you, they've had those drunk nights too, and they've probably done much worse on those nights. I hate to sound like a song from Frozen, but let it go.
Anyway, this was the first one since my night of drunken behavior. Fortunately it wasn't as bad as I thought, although the fact that I was visibly drunk was mentioned.
I said I was embarrassed by the whole thing and it was unusual for me to get that way.
That aside, it was probably one of the funnest nights I've had there. Lot's of play, I helped top several times, I bottomed for the 2 guys I'm friendly with....it was a hot night.
After we all (the 2 guys I play with and the owner) went to a diner and got some food.
I told them about my plans to move to the city.
I had a total of 3 drinks during the night....their was NO chance I was having a part II from the week before.
That's about all!
My new shorter hair was well recieved, lol.
It sounds like life is starting to fall into place around you. We told you that you have good self awareness, you think through your decisions [although not on drunk nights ], and you're cautious enough to look before you leap. Trust yourself. As scary as life is for you these days, you're handling it beautifully.