12-27-2014, 06:36 PM
[MENTION=22155]TheNewsie[/MENTION] ... Homophobia really fucks things up -- and this is a classic example. You're struggling with accepting yourself and have no support from your family, friends, community. What's worse, now, as a consequence, another person is involved -- and you've gotten yourself into a super awkward situation. There is just no easy way that I can see to be out of this. You're going to have to present some reason why you don't want to physically intimate with her and she's not going to like it, regardless what it is. Maybe someone else has some bright ideas but I sure as hell don't. You're NOT really a "bad" person... you're just afraid and or ill prepared to deal with the challenges you're having to deal with. You've made some decisions that are now biting you in the ass. (We all do one way and another.) Thing is, though, you're going to have to deal with them and, other than being honest and getting the truth out there, I don't see any way to do it without hurt feelings and worse.
At least you have a community here you can talk to about all this. Wishing you good luck!
At least you have a community here you can talk to about all this. Wishing you good luck!
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