Going to do it !!!

[Rareboy]

I thought you said you had more than one child?

Anyhow from what you indicate, you and your family are in an extremely poor financial state. It seems that neither your wife, your child or you are likely to be able to survive or thrive if you move out.

Do your disabilities prevent you or your wife from actually working or is it possible that you might obtain employment that would permit you to support yourselves and your child if you move out of the family home?

[Nanaki]

Is your therapist practicing as part of a community mental health center? If so, you may be able to get their fee on a sliding scale based on your income. If they aren't, and you change your mind and decide to look for someone else, try checking with your local human services center for a referral to a community mental health center in your area. You'd probably still have to pay something on a sliding scale, but I'm pretty sure it would be less than your Medicaid spenddown.

[lonley]

Sorry I should have said this before .Yes I am getting a reduced rate because of my income full rate is 76.00 and I am paying 56.25 . It is a teaching place and if I let a student sit in on the sessions it drops another 12.00 he said I am not sure if I am ready to let that happen just yet !

[lonley]

Rareboy I do have two kids one is a step child and she lives with us and she has a 16 month old daughter also that lives with us
so that means it is my self the wife two girls and and a grand baby two female cats and two female dogs and only one bath room OMG no wonder I am gay lol

[Darius]

You're 28 with a grandchild? Your wife must be a lot older?

Lonley, do you mind if I ask what the nature of your wife's and your disabilities are?

[lonley]

yes she is 44 and she has degenerative muscles and bones in her back and the nerves are dying in her legs and arms and hands . I know that I did not mention this before because we do not get along but I have the two small children and one is a step child and then she has a older child another step child of mine she is 21 and she has hated me from day one ! she just had to move back home last month . I do not even stay in the same room as her I do love my grand baby tho

[lonley]

Well she did it ! She just packed the kids up and left me . I am devastated now that I have lost my kids she left all the cell phones the car everything but a few cloths for the kids . I have no idea who she left with some strange man , he just walked right into this house like he owned it I told him to leave and he laughed at me so I called the cops and they made him leave she would not talk to me she talked to the cops and they told me that she said she was leaving and not coming back and the next time I see her will be in court . I am so depressed right now I don't care if I live or die . I know that is bad to say but it is true I care less. I have no idea what to do my world just came crashing down all around me and I am drowning in it . Sorry if this in the wrong spot but at this point what does it really matter anymore . I lost my family , lost the man I thought I loved , what else can go wrong now . It is horrible to say but maybe it would be better If I never woke up again or get hit by a bus or car.

[shirogane]

Well she did it ! She just packed the kids up and left me . I am devastated now that I have lost my kids she left all the cell phones the car everything but a few cloths for the kids . I have no idea who she left with some strange man , he just walked right into this house like he owned it I told him to leave and he laughed at me so I called the cops and they made him leave she would not talk to me she talked to the cops and they told me that she said she was leaving and not coming back and the next time I see her will be in court . I am so depressed right now I don't care if I live or die . I know that is bad to say but it is true I care less. I have no idea what to do my world just came crashing down all around me and I am drowning in it . Sorry if this in the wrong spot but at this point what does it really matter anymore . I lost my family , lost the man I thought I loved , what else can go wrong now . It is horrible to say but maybe it would be better If I never woke up again or get hit by a bus or car.

I thought I had told you about not having that thought in your mind. You lost your family, so what ? You must be glad that you dont live any damn second in that hell. You lost your man, so what ?If he leave you in this difficult time then he is a jerk, you shouldn't bother about him

[lonley]

I am sorry shirogane it is really hard to think good thoughts when this is all going on ,I am not going to try and hurt my self this time I promise I was just saying that I don't care what happens to me right now . I am glad he is gone anyway I found out that I was his mistress any way he was cheating on another man that he had been with for a while now . I did tell the other man tho and I know that was prob wrong of me but I would want to know so I told him and I walked away . I hate it but I cant fix it .

[shirogane]

I am sorry shirogane it is really hard to think good thoughts when this is all going on ,I am not going to try and hurt my self this time I promise I was just saying that I don't care what happens to me right now . I am glad he is gone anyway I found out that I was his mistress any way he was cheating on another man that he had been with for a while now . I did tell the other man tho and I know that was prob wrong of me but I would want to know so I told him and I walked away . I hate it but I cant fix it .

Dont care about yourself is a way to suicide. That shouldn't be in your mind in the first place.Your wife has made decision, so do you. She has also learnt her lesson and you should learn it soon.