first love trouble

[Borg69]

i have no way to answer that because i am not you. you're the only one who can figure out your feelings and you should do so.

one point though -- when you're in love you'll know it. there's no ambiguity to the feeling whatsoever.

Not true. Young inexperienced feelings driven by lust, infatuation, obsession, desperation, envy, jealousy ... everything we think is LOVE, often times is everything but.

OP... your friend is a great guy with a lot of great qualities. The thing is, emotions are complex. Just because he fills A through D, it doesn't mean you automatically get E thru Z with him. Rationalize what qualities you admire about him, and find a gay BF with those similar qualities.

[meridannight]

Not true. Young inexperienced feelings driven by lust, infatuation, obsession, desperation, envy, jealousy ... everything we think is LOVE, often times is everything but.

i differentiate between ''in love'' and ''love''. the latter is a mature stable version grown out of the former. and no, there is no ambiguity about being in love. i always know when i'm feeling it.